A CALL FOR EVERY EX MEMBER OF AGAPE TO DO A REFLECTIVE DIARY OF THEIR TIME IN AGAPE, THE ONLY WAY TO KNOW IF YOU WERE ABUSED

Walter Masocha wearing two aprons and an overall calling for church members to give him money to build his church....

Walter Masocha and little children during an Agape church service...

When  I was a mental health nurse, I used to do reflective analysis on a regular basis during my practise. For you to improve as a nurse in clinical practise, you have to be able to correctly reflect on major incidents. This involves thinking about, pondering on, asking yourself questions about, discussing with yourself , trying to work something out, making sense of things, learning from experience, and helping you plan for the future. Reflective writing is essential in understanding how an incident happened, why it happened and how you as an individual handled the situation.  To be a reflective writer, first of all you have to be honest with yourself, this may seem like something obvious, but in my own experience dealing with people, I know that a lot of people are not willing to be honest with themselves, because being honest with yourself is literally taking a torch light and shining it on those things that you don't want anyone knowing about. However, once you overcome this hurdle, you will be able to reflect on past incidents clearly and do a critical analysis of what actually happened. One reason why Walter Masocha was able to brainwash academics, even people with PHD's is because he understood how the human mind works. I didn't even know there was such a thing as SPIRITUAL ABUSE until Walter Masocha was done abusing me. I remember even Walter Masocha telling me that I was not to GOOGLE anything or seek knowledge from any other teacher but him. This was the way he controlled our minds. 

Walter Masocha hypnotising and brainwashing vulnerable Church members

The brainwashing continued in South Africa

 And in United States of America

More brainwashing in Uganada

What really helped me come to realise that I was brainwashed and cruelly abused by Walter Masocha was because I always wrote things down. I have three diaries from when I was in Agape. I wrote everything that Walter told me, even the little things he used to whisper in my ears when he was praying for me, I would go home and write them down in my diary. When I was being abused, I didn't even know it was abuse, I thought it was love, I believe this is the most painful form of abuse, because when its happening, you haven't got a bloody clue. In fact you will realise you were assisting your abuser hurt you through your gullibility. When you finally realise the truth you will blame yourself for allowing yourself to be brainwashed and abused in broad daylight, it will take time to recover from this pain. You have to learn to be kind to yourself and be nice to yourself, otherwise without that you will find the journey of recovery long and full of hurdles. Avoid calling yourself names like foolish, stupid and idiot, because unfortunately you will feel like that, or worse, but you have to give yourself grace.

On Saturday I had a conversation with Muzvare Betty Makoni and she was encouraging I create a medium for victims to open up and speak out about the abuse, my boyfriend Nino also suggested the same to me. Nino suggested I create a platform for men who were abused to talk about their experiences. I have to admit I had never thought of the men as victims, because the women and girls seems to be the most affected in this scandal. But men are victims too.  Right now the court case is only focusing on women and girls, but we all know that there are a lot of men who also had their homes destroyed. They are also wives who were told to leave their husbands by Walter. At the 1 March Victim No More Event, there were men who also spoke out about the abuse they suffered in the hands of Walter Masocha. At the 1 March Victim No More Event Immigration lawyer Rumbi Bvunzawabaya also highlighted that your immigration status will not affect your case of abuse, in fact you could use your case of abuse by Walter Masocha to seek refuge in the United Kingdom and it is within your legal rights to do that. Most of Walter Masocha's  victims are illegal immigrants who are afraid to go to the police. 

However I would like to urge every person who was once a member of Agape, male or female to do a personal reflection of the things that happened to them in Agape. I believe this case is bigger than Jimmy Saville case, what is being reported in the media is only the tip of the iceberg. Once the silent victims start coming up, a picture that will shock the world will emerge. Every former member of Agape, I urge you to relax and maybe put on some quiet music, go in a quiet room,  take a long warm bath or maybe take a walk in the park, whatever helps you to relax and reflect on your own. I personally reflect when I am jogging, soon after a jog I take a pen and paper and write down my reflections. This is the best way I recollect events in my mind and do a critical analysis of what happened. I also reflect when I am taking a bath or when I am in bed. I always have my journal and pen next to my bed. Nino being an opera singer  has a very different taste in music, only good listeners appreciate opera music. Well, he introduced me to music by a singer called ENYA, her music is so beautiful and calming it makes you listen to yourself. Thats one of the most important key elements of reflection, LISTENING TO YOUR INNER THOUGHTS. You have to stop thinking like everyone else and just see things from YOUR OWN POINT OF VIEW. 

I would like challenge every former member of Agape to do this. It is very crucial in helping you come to the realisation or understanding of whether you were actually abused by Walter Masocha or not, be it sexually, emotionally, financially, spiritually or physically. I have come up with this model as a reflective tool to use when doing your reflective analysis. You can use it as a guideline. You will be surprised what your mind will bring to remembrance when you embark on this personal journey of reflection. 

PERSONALISED REFLECTION TOOL FOR EX-AGAPE MEMBERS

1. WHY? Ask yourself why you started going to Agape Church. 
2. WHAT HAPPENED? Ask yourself what happened between you and Walter Masocha personally when you were a member of Agape Church? He did claim to know and have a personal relationship with each member of his church. 
3. WHY DID I LEAVE? Ask yourself what made you leave this church?

These are the only three key questions you need to focus on in order to establish if you were abused  by Masocha or not? It doesn't matter if you are a man or woman, we were all vulnerable and were his target. Get a pen and paper, relax, think and answer these three questions, you will be surprised what comes up. When you are doing reflection, don't worry about spelling or grammar, just write down whatever comes to mind, you can correct your writing after you have built a picture of events. Also when you are doing reflection, its important to be honest with yourself, even writing down things you think are silly and don't matter, they are normally the most important things!There are men in Agape who were told to divorce their wives, one man had to watch his wife being given to another man by Walter Masocha. He even attended the wedding of his own wife! These are some of the things some men had to go through in Agape. I hope this will be a way forward for people who are still suffering in silence, as some have said on this blog that they don't know whether they were abused or not. There are some people who are afraid to talk to the police, your own reflective diary or journal can be used as your evidence, I personally handed some of my written journals to the police as evidence.  

You can post your reflective analysis here anonymously, or email me your analysis privately at jeangasho.gmail.com anonymously if you wish. I would like to present all the information I collect on this post or privately to the police, then they will be able to maybe create a way for Walter Masocha victims to come forward in a way that is less frightening for victims.

Most recent Agape arranged marriage of Soliwan Enock and Marlven Kadiki. Soliwan is the daughter of Tabetha Enock, the lady who grooms under age girls to be masseurs of Daddy. 

Soliwan Enock and her arranged husband Marlven Kadiki

We were required to wear overalls during every church meeting, overalls were between £35-£40 a piece.

Not sure if this is still brainwashing or just Walter Masocha having fun in South Africa at the expense of poor church members...

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