I write this post today from the bottom of my heart. I write this post today as a woman who at 20 years of age qualified as a mental health nurse. I write this post today as a woman whose very first patient was a young Ghananian woman who had burnt her two year old little boy to death. The boy had been so badly burnt he was recognised by dental records. My first job as a nurse was in a Secure Mental Hospital were people who have committed serious crimes as a result of an underlying mental illness are sectioned under the mental health act and receive treatment.
For the sake of confidentiality, I will call my Ghananian patient, Anna. Anna was only about 23. She had just moved to UK from Ghana with her very much older English husband she had met in Ghana. He was well over 50. He met Anna in Ghana, and she was living in the rural areas in extreme poverty, no electricity, no running water, no much food, no suitable clothing etc. Anna then meets this older white men, she falls pregnant, and gives birth to a beautiful boy. Anna used to say the villagers in Ghana felt so jealous of her they started going to witchdoctors to bewitch her and cast a spell on her. Anna was now having so many problems in the village community because of jealousy, her wealthy white boyfriend decides to bring her and their little boy to the UK.
Upon arrival to the UK, Anna is a very young mother in a foreign land and struggles to cope with the culture shock. Her husband's family are very unkind to her because of the colour of her skin. Her husbands starts to emotionally abuse her, she has no friends, no family, Anna is just all alone with her baby boy everyday in the house. She misses Africa, the food, the vibrancy, the sunshine and everything beautiful Africa has to offer. Anna is very lonely and completely on her own, no support or help at all. She then falls into depression. Her husband takes no notice and continues to neglect her.
Anna's depression developed into psychosis obviously. She is in a very dark place right now. Her husband doesn't understand the depth of her loneliness and pain. This is an African young woman lost in England, all on her own. She starts hearing voices. She starts seeing things. She smells fire. She believes the TV talks to her. She starts hearing voices in her head. She no longer sleeps at night because she is so tormented by the voices.
One winter night Anna wakes up, the voices are tormenting her, she takes her 2 year old boy outside, she lights a fire, a huge fire. She grabs her little boy and throws him in the fire. The boy was severely burnt he became a heap of ashes. She starts screaming, taking her clothes off, and as events unfolded Anna ends up in a secure mental hospital.
As a 20 year old newly qualified nurse, I get my first job in this hospital. I also had my insecurities. I was very shy, had no confidence, didn't speak very much, and I was hurting, I had just got married, none of my in laws liked me, I mean they hated me rather and had turned the whole Zimbabwean community in Southport and Liverpool against me. I did not even have a single friend at this time, my only friend I had Felistas Mudzingwa had been taken by my in-laws and turned against me. I used to sit in the park alone and just cry. So starting a job as a mental health nurse was a big challenge to me, and very overwhelming. I was too young and I was also in a very dark place myself, very lonely and sad.
But when I started work at this Secure Mental Health Hospital, I met Anna, and everything changed for me. She was a beautiful young woman, inside and out. I was drawn to her and she was drawn to me. I found myself understanding her, and she loved talking to me. To me she was not a mad woman who had burnt her son to death, to me she was Anna, a young African woman who had been put in this situation by the very person who was supposed to protect her, her husband. My manager made me Anna's named nurse, she became my very first patient. You see Anna was special, she was an excellent cook and introduced me to Ghananian food and without realising it, she became a ray of sunshine in my life rather, she made my work as a mental health nurse enjoyable and worthwhile. I didnt see evil in her at all, I saw her other side, her beauty within and her pain. She grieved for her son, she never meant to kill him. She was an ambitious young woman, she wanted to go to Collage and do a cooking course. I left the job and never heard from Anna again, but she will always have a special place in my heart. I think about her now and again.
You see dear readers, I have sympathy for people with mental health problems, especially women. I understand them, and I have a big heart for such people. I understand that for a woman to be severly mentally unwell, something would have happened to lead to that. I was labelled mentally unwell by Agape For All Nations Ministries International. I was publicly diagnosed by Agape as a deranged woman who belonged in a mental institute. Thats why during a church service my own mother in law and sister in law Gertrude Musuka (The two women who were supposed to care for me and protect me) called an ambulance for me to be sectioned under the mental health act for telling them that they were abusing me. I want the world to now understand the mindset of this church, the spirit behind it and how it operates.
Yesterday I was speaking to someone and I said I want Agape finished. I will do everything in my power to ensure this church is investigated and SHUT DOWN. I will never stop until Agape For All Nations Ministries International is no more. When I said that this person insinuated that only God could finish Agape not me and somehow made me feel I was taking the place of God. But people may not understand me, or why I feel so strongly about this. I may be just a woman, but I believe God still uses me. For me to say I want Agape finished is not taking the place of God, because God Himself has got nothing to do with Agape cult and He will help anyone who wants this evil cult finished.
I told you about Anna because today she reminds me of Farai Chiriseri. This is a young woman in a foreign land who has just gone though a dramatic painful change in her life. Her husband leaves her under the instruction of a religious leader Walter Masocha. Her own in laws Joseph Chiriseri and his wife (who are also members of Agape) do everything in their power to get rid of Farai in the family. They encourage Tichakunda to abandon his family. Farai is left completely on her own, and watches another woman Caroline Chiwara takes over her husband. Farai is demonised by Walter Masocha and Agape church members. She obviously gets severely depressed, there is no help for her out there. You see if Farai had been in Africa things would have never got to this, she would have had family and community support, NO WOMAN RAISES CHILDREN ON HER OWN IN AFRICA. There is a support network that is so powerful, women even have upto two or three maids. But its very different in the United Kingdom. There are no maids in UK. No support. Your only support is normally your spouse. If they leave you, you are on your own, literally. And thats a very dark place to be. Depression when untreated leads to psychosis. Thats what happened with Anna who burnt her own son to death and thats exactly what happened to Farai who literally ripped out her son's heart out on Friday. Her own heart had been ripped apart by Tichakunda, his family and by Prophet Walter Masocha who contributed hugely to her marriage breakdown.
Right now Agape are attacking Farai, calling her mad and an evil woman. But I don't see her that way. I don't condone what she did, but I see her as a woman who has tragically lost her beloved son. I believe Farai was a good mother, she loved her children, and tried her best as a single mother, but severe depression may have taken over her, had she received help earlier, her precious baby son would have been here today.
My opinion still stands today, was it not for Agape For All Nations Ministries International I believe little Scott Chiriseri would still be here today. A lot of my readers have prophesied that Agape will not see 2015. I hope and pray that this prophecy comes to pass, because enough is enough! Surely something has to be done to stop this church. Its too evil. Walter Masocha being charged with sexual offences is just not enough, he does far evil and worse crimes to humanity operating in his self ordained office as a prophet. If nursing homes and nurseries can be shut down because of abuse, why not churches? I have DVDs of Prophet Walter Masocha violently pushing women and CHILDREN to the floor during church services. I went through hours of grueling exorcism restrained to the floor by male pastors Muchengeti Hove and Francis Aturia. I was tortured in Agape and I want this church shut down . Agape For All Nations Ministries International should not see 2015. Enough is enough!
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